I see things in a different light...

These days I see things in a different light, I try to look at things a little differently in my life, some days I end up just saying to myself the hell with it, or become so isolated to where I don't want to talk to anyone, not even my mom or dad for that matter, but sometimes I do cry just to get rid of my own heartache and pain for what I see in this world, I take a look at what I have in this world and I think and say to myself "how blessed I am to have a second chance at my life again", and then I feel sometimes alone, because I don't have the one friend I have since I was 2 Years old living again he is dead, and cannot share with me what I have in my life anymore, so I deal with the memories of him alone, and feel sadden inside myself, well I think for now I am dealing with things better with what I have now in my life, but again I can say that sometimes, I do miss my own true friend, but I move on with my life, and then again, I think that I am very truly in deed much so in one word, I can say is BLESSED, for what I have in my life. And again, I feel loved, by the people who love and care about me. Very True Indeed.