my insite on life

I Believe that things in my life has been rough but now, I see what I must do withinside myself, and I must face it alone, sometimes when I deal with my family it is hard, I am doing what needs to be done, but nonetheless, it does hurt me when the things that I care the most (my kids) hurt and there is nothing that I can do about it at this moment, all I can do is pray that things go well and my kids stay alive, until I get them home safe and sound, I guess, I must be paranoid about my kids, well I can't apologize, for my thoughts that are withinside me all the time, yes I do worry about them alot I am there mother, I love them alot and I will do whatever it takes to make sure that they stay alive and that no one ever hurts them, and I ment that to my kids, they know that they can count on me on what I ssaid to them on keeping them safe from people that hurt them that are mean, but I am not only there Mother, but there guardian angel always and for life, This I have made a promise to them on this, and they know it too, but I do hope that my insite, will let me rest until I am able to worry again, well I hope so, but can not promise myself on it...LOL, well I know this will get better this year somehow or another at least. Get busy living or get busy dying, well the choice is to Live for myself and my kids, and know that people care about me that knows me, this is my choice now, so I deal with it always, until I die.